Some random woman last week, in the locker room at the yoga studio said to me…”You haven’t blogged in a long time.”… and I did a double take and thought… really… someone actually reads my blog aside from my very own mother?? I sort of did the scoffy laugh like,, “Yeah, I know…ha ha…” But you know how there are chapters in your life where you are literally holding on for dear life and the speed at which you’re traveling seems to leave bugs in your teeth?? Yah, well, that’s sort of how it’s been for me these last couple of months. These spring months are always a little overwhelming, what, with spring sports, weeknight practices, meetings, auctions, mother’s day, birthdays, all of it….. on top of the fact that we’re all coming out of the woodwork to get the outside of our houses looking decent and ready for summer.
Mother’s Day this year was INSANE!! I got a new retailer at the end of March from out in Michigan, and those ladies know how to sell jewelry. The business relationship was a little rocky at first, because let’s face it, everyone wants to make money and no one wants to lose out on profit. But I think working with them through Mother’s day, they now know my expectations, and the kinks are worked out. Not sure if either of them read my blog, but man they kept me on my toes. There were a couple times I’d see yet another purchase order come across my fax and I’d be like NOOOOOO NOOOO MORE!!!!! And I’m getting a little nicer with the procrastinators that call me the Thursday before Mother’s Day wondering if I’d be so kind as expediting their order because “they just found my website” or “didn’t know my cutoff was midnight on the 5th”… I used to tear those guys a new one…. Jesus is working on my heart… it’s evident. I’m not denying the fact that I didn’t lose my marbles and drop my basket a couple of times…. but when I did, I was able to pick myself back up quicker.
I’m coaching Maggie’s softball team again this year. This is only the 2nd year of coaching softball for me. And I swear,,,, it’s the best thing ever. I played my freshman and sophomore years in high school. And I remember just loving it. It’s not an easy sport to teach 7 and 8 year olds tho’. Compared to her team last year, the girls we have this year seem like Olympic athletes. And…. and… Mountain Girl Silver is the West Linn Softball Association league sponsor this year. Seeing my logo and my business name on over 300 shirts running around the community on a Saturday morning makes me all warm n’ fuzzy inside. Has it generated any business? I don’t know….. but all I know is it makes me feel good to throw money at youth sports, because I firmly believe that had I not grown up playing sports, I wouldn’t be who I am today. People tell me (especially my husband) that I have a pretty sharp competitive bone in my body. But what I do know is that bikram yoga is breaking me of that. Bikram yoga and Jesus have taken my ego and put the kabash on it. I sometimes feel as if I’m not as strong as I used to be. Physically I’m stronger. But I’m starting to lose the rough edge I once had that kept jerks away. That could be a good thing. Good thing or a bad thing. I dunno. I guess I just feel like I’ve changed in recent months. Can’t really put my finger on it…. but again, it could just be that I’ve been holding on for dear life and just getting what I need to get done!! Maybe I’m getting better at managing my time. Not that has brought anymore sense of calm. I’m just in more of a routine I guess. And the sunshine…. OHHH EMMMM GEEEEEE the sunshine brings out the best in me.
I was talking to a friend the other day who we share the same love for gardening. And she said that she wasn’t going to plant one this year. I was like, “WHAAAT”…. so odd. But then I realized just how much I’ve been dreading it and putting it off myself. It’s been a soggy spring, and I didn’t even get new dirt delivered until about two weeks ago as it is. My hubby even built me an extra 20 square feet of raised bed attached to my current bed, and I STILL have no motivation to plant. I think it’s because he’s got all these plans for us to travel and go here and go there this summer and it’s like why plant a garden if I’m not even gonna be around to enjoy the thing? There is nothing I hate more that having to ask a neighbor to watch my garden and my chickens when I go somewhere. I think it’s because I know how much I hate doing that for people. It’s a pain. Is that bad to admit? I guess I shouldn’t say I hate it…. I don’t. But I certainly don’t do it with a smile on my face. So I’m sort of himming and hawing whether or not to plant one this year or not. I mean, if Amy isn’t planting one, then I guess it’s “okay” to skip a season for cry in’ out loud. But man….. I love me some sugar snap peas!!! We’ll see I guess. Yet again, that undue pressure I put on myself…. starting to recognize it for what it’s worth and pushing back.
In 30 minutes I’m meeting a gal up by Safeway to pick up two sweatshirts I won in an ebay auction. Kinda funny. In the entire world of Ebay, I liked, bid on, and won two separate auctions from the same seller who literally lives a stones throw from me. Random. So when I saw that she was from “Oregon”, I asked her if she would deduct one of the shipping charges and decrease the shipping amount since I was in “Oregon” too. Somehow in communication with her, we both discovered we both lived in West Linn. Then coordinating a pick-up time, find out that we both have kids the same ages… I’m anxious to meet her because I know a lot of people in this community and would find it pretty funny if I actually knew her. Her kids go to a different school, so it’s doubtful. But I bet I’ve seen her before in a Safeway Aisle or at starbuckies.
We’ve had sunshine for about 7 days in a row now and my bones are finally warmed up. The stupid weatherman is predicting rain to return after this coming weekend. I predict I’ll be depressed when it starts raining. But it’ll give all the flowers around my house a nice hefty drink. I’m so not in the “watering” mode yet…… I still feel like I’m thawing out from Winter.
Until next time…..
God Bless y’all…